I'm brand spankin new to counterstrike. i played it a little bit before, and i recall having the same problem now i had before... you have to be REALY determined to play with guys that rape you every time.
I used to have the same problem with quake 3 arena too. you realy can't play recreationaly and be any good at it, you have to play non stop, getting killed every few seconds and not killing anybody, before you can start to pick up on good stratagys.
i'll get better, i'm just lil slow :-P